Feeling worse than shit now. Inside i mean. Emotionally, seriously la guys. For those who know me well, after what i have been through. Do i really deserve this? I mean, what did i do to deserve all these shit. I guess i have no one to blame but for the way i am eh.

Everything seemed to be smmoth sailing until... Uh. what the fuck. Maybe like what albert says, the time is not right yet, like what janice said, i do things too fast, leaving them the wrong right sort of impression, like what ris said, im good in everyway ( thanks ris) but i entered her life too late. Thanks guys luh huh. Appreciate it when you guys took time to listen to what i had to say. Right wenjie?

But hey, i guess this is how my life is supposed to be. Sort of a way to punish me for my way of handling my love life during sec school. I have learnt way too much, from my 1st sem to this sem. Took the first shot, picked myself up, taking another shot, im still down, still unsure when i can pick myself up again. But i know that time will come. Till then... will there be a third shot?

I dont think i deserve all this. Seriously, fuck this situation.
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